Wednesday, April 4, 2012
The Next Phase
The Next Phase..............
Over the past few weeks I’ve been getting a tremendous amount of support from people and places that I never expected. Those of you I say thank you for the continued support and prayers!!! I been getting less support from places I would be expecting to get the most of it from. That hurts but I have gotten over it and its helped to contribute to this next blog. I have to do better at prioritizing people and things in my life. Not every person or thing holds me in the same regard as I do them and I now see that. The next phase of my rehab is going to be the hardest part. I am not ready to run just yet but I am about to begin to test new limits with my leg. In the weight room I was able to squat again with weight I was only going to use 95lbs but ended up going up to 225lbs. Far from my personal best lift but it’s a start. All I ask for is progress. With the new start I plan on making some other changes in my life as well. I think as a human its okay to remove things and people who are just there taking up space or causing harm to you. That harm can be caused in a mental, physical, and emotional way. Obviously you automatically want to eliminate anything that is causing physical harm to you. The other two are not so obvious. You have to be 100% honest with yourself and that particular situation or person. I am not saying walk away from every situation or person that is not on your good side right now. Almost every person in you life is going to cause some sort of problem for you. Think about it you have bad times with your parent’s, siblings, relatives, coaches, teachers, friends, significant others and strangers. That being said its important that you analyze what value each relationship you have with someone and be honest. Is this relation ship hurting me mentally and emotionally more than I am willing to deal with? If it is I need to move on from that person and situation. It hurts to say goodbye but in the long run it’s worth it.
That being said in my next phase of recovery I’m going to do my best to revaluate my relationships with a lot of people and other things that I am involved in. At times I find myself emotionally mentally drained to a point of confusion. It’s hard to explain because I don’t think of myself as an emotional guy. But at times I find myself in situations that are spending more time making me mad or sad than they are making me happy. I think its important to find that balance and to make sure you build your team with people who have your back and best interest at all times not just when its convenient for them, God has your back at all times so that’s the first place you have to start the relationship building after that everything else will fall in place. Remember to put the people first who put you first, A good friend reminded me of that yesterday, thanks Tia!!!
Since my last blog I’ve been feeling better I think writing about what I was going through helped me tremendously and I hope that it helped someone else.