Monday, May 14, 2012


As a motivated human being we always want to do better and be better than we currently are. Its called hunger and drive.... That same hunger and drive can be used to harm us. It can cause us to be impatient and that often leads to results that we don’t necessarily want.  I often find myself forgetting that my life is not going to go on my clock and things aren’t always going to happen when I want them to and how I have them planned for myself. It’s a higher power that controls that. It’s hard to accept that at times but I have no choice. Everyday when I wake up and before I go to bed, I am constantly trying to figure out the next move I can make to make myself great. I think that at times my drive to be great can cause me to skip over steps and not pay attention to small details that I am supposed to. My solution is simple. Slow down and follow gods plan.  I have been learning that, yes today I may not be where I want to be but I know that if I continue to have a strong faith in god and if I continue to live my life through him that I will end up better than I could have ever imagined. It may mean that a dream I have for myself may never be accomplished. I’m okay with that. My plan isn’t the most important plan. (I’ll be honest, just writing that was one of the hardest things I had to do.) Saying that and truly believing it is a really humbling experience

2 Peter 3:9 The Lord is not slow to fulfill his promise as some count slowness, but is patient toward you, not wishing that any should perish, but that all should reach repentance.

Think about it in relationship to track…. 
In the 4x100 meter relay there are four runners all most likely the fastest guys on your team. They all have different ranges of speed. In order to exchange the baton between the athletes one has to be patient and trust in one themselves and two the other person’s ability. One must trust that they will be patient enough to wait for the incoming runner to hit the mark and that when they take off they must trust that the incoming runner will be able to get the baton to them. This must be duplicated three times in order to have a successful relay. I think life is like this too. You have to trust that god has the right and only right plan for you. You must be able to zone in on what it is that he has planned for you and you must be able to move along and overcome the obstacles that are placed in front of you in order for you to reach the ultimate goal of the finish line.
(That made sense to me and hopefully it did to you as well)

Its a lot easier for me to sit and write this than it is for me to actually live through this but I am learning to do so. “ Patience is not the ability to wait, but the ability to keep a good attitude while waiting.”  That quote is on the home screen of my phone. I am forced to constantly look down at it and reread it. When I feel myself getting down about a current situation, or if I am putting the carriage before the horse in any situation it’s a great reminder to slow down.  Having patience is really tough and I think all people have some struggle at times with it. It’s ok though you should be eager to be better. We all just have to find a way to do that within the plan god already has for us……. 

Thursday, May 3, 2012

Time Flies

Time Flies.....

It’s almost been a month since my last post. I looked today and was a little shocked. As I think back to what I have been through the past few weeks I must say that only god could be the reason for how I am doing and how I feel. It’s been 11 weeks and a few days since I hurt myself and I must say my progress has been remarkable. I was told that I wasn't going to be able to run again until week 12 but I can confidently say I started light jogging at week 6 and I sprinted again this week. SPIKES and all. Each day has been a little easier than the last. I’m still doing my rehab program and still working out in the weight room too. I hit 365 for a parallel squat two weeks go and now I've moved on to a front squatting cycle. 

I must admit that 11 weeks ago I couldn’t imagine the day I would be able to run again. (That’s just the amount of pain I was in) but I kept a strong faith in god an in my natural abilities and i'm on my way!!! I’m not ready yet but all a person needs to see is a little progress and you tend to automatically get an extra boost of confidence to push on. If found myself focusing a lot more on the little things in life too. The smallest gestures from people i've began to notice more. It’s probably because of all the small things I had to pay attention to while healing. It has forced me to just carry it over into my everyday life. The small things people have done for me have been the things that have made the Time Fly.... some things have been positive and some negative and I have been learning a lot about the people around me. I always thought that I was a person who paid attention to the fine print but as of late I have really been getting a better understanding for what that meant. 

The support I haven’t been getting is what I think has been the most inspirational in that extra attention to detail.  Like I wrote last time its ok to just let people go and by me following my own advice it has mad things a lot lighter on me... Yea it hurt at first and even know it does because no human likes to realize that a person they though cared about them oh so much is doing just the opposite... but Time goes on and it Flies by and those hurt days are soon replaced by the joy of the progress you have been seeing for yourself. I think at times it just takes that time to yourself for you too see that the strongest and most deadly weapon you have is yourself. We can be the most positive person when it comes to ourselves but we can also be our biggest and most harmful critic. Its important in your time of grief or disappointment that you remember that you are the same person who has had great exciting moments and that whatever down period you are in YOU can get your self out. Once you get out of the down situation you always look back and say dang Time sure does fly, I can remember when I was ________. My quiet moment isn’t over yet. I am not racing for a few more weeks but I am getting closer to making another explosion on a track somewhere close.

Thank you to the people who are truly in my corner and support me. Not just athletically but emotionally and just in my everyday life. Ill takes my four quarters all day everyday over 100 pennies. It’s those four quarters that are making me PUSH and keep my eyes on the prize.......

Thank you to the people and things that weren’t truly in my corner for you have helped me reduce my load. I don’t have to go out my way any longer and you helped me realize a lot of what I should have already knew!!!