Okay so I hope
this makes sense…..
Too often do we go about living our lives on a daily basis
not knowing who WE are. Who are YOU? That’s a question that not many of us can
honestly answer. Who am I, Well besides being Terrell Wilks… Who are you???
It’s a question that I have found myself pondering over for a while now. I’m 22
years old, not old but definitely not getting any younger. I am in the emerging
adulthood stage of my life. A time where I am finding ME. I have a lot of room to grow but I don’t
know how much time I have to make that growth happen. This time not competing
has made me see things about myself that I don’t think I was…. Wait let me
correct that I KNOW I wasn’t paying any attention too. I believe that this
phase that I am in right now is a test. A test to see who, and what my true
commitments are too. I believe that god showed me that yes I am a naturally
gifted athlete but without him I can never reach my max potential. I say that
was my test because the race where I hurt myself I pulled up early but the
momentum I had created early in the race caused me to not finish last and to
still run the fastest time I had ever ran in my life for 60 meters. If that
wasn’t a message I don’t know what is. Being honest with myself and thinking
about the place in life in which I was in I know had I finished that race like
I thought I was supposed to, I wouldn’t be sitting up writing these blogs. I
wouldn’t open my bible randomly just to try to get a better understanding of
life. Finally, I wouldn’t have slowed down long enough to see all the good I
was missing out on by not fully giving myself to the right person. The only way
I was able to realize that was by figuring out who I am.
This time down has forced me to reevaluate who Terrell Wilks
is…. It’s ok now for me to look back at myself and say that I was weak. That I
needed help (which I still do). A few other things too, but I wont bash myself
too much. I have come to a better understanding of who I am and what it is I
have to do to reach my max potential in this life. Now max potential to me
doesn’t mean that I am going to win an Olympic gold medal… Would I like to?
YES, but now knowing and understanding what it means when I hear that things
don’t happen on my time, they happen on gods, I feel like I am going to be ok.
I realize that these past few months I have learned things about myself that a
lot of people would never understand if I told them and that’s ok because the
right person understands. No I don’t live my life 100% right all the time. But
I can honestly say that I have gotten Better. Progress is key in all aspects of
your life. I think that progress is only made once you figure out who YOU are. It’s
ok to take time to do that. It’s needed and its well respected by people when
you can present yourself in a very assuring way. Today I can say I know who
Terrell Wilks is, maybe not in my entirety but I’m a lot more familiar with
myself now than I had been in the past. You should try it. Learn yourself before
you attempt to try to learn someone else or even before you try to present
yourself. A polished product is always the best!!!
